02/19/2026 I feel so alone…emotionally starved…my nervous system continuously breaking and I'm left picking up the pieces for it to just keep breaking…it feels like the goals I have to look forward to are becoming less and less powerful and motivating to achieve…maybe because I was never really doing them for myself…maybe I was always …
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My message to you…
I wore my heart on my sleeve for most of my life…and was rejected for doing so…I learned to avoid my emotions as a way to survive…but the little kid inside me was still very much emotionally anxious…anxiously attached to my loved ones…always looking for reassurance for my own self worth from others…from you. I’ve …
New Beginnings
Day 12 - 01/26/2026 I haven't written in some time mostly because I've been obsessing over writing daily…which probably wasn't the healthiest however, I still believe it's what saved me. I no longer feel the emotional need every morning to distract myself by writing out my pain…because for the most part the intensity is gone. …
JHopfer Blog - My Journal and Accountability 